Believing

"Believing is seeing."

This was a post made by a friend on my Facebook friends list. It caught my eye and attention immediately. I've never heard anyone say that before. Sure, I've heard, "Seeing is believing." We all have. I never liked that though... maybe because it always had a slight ring of doubt to it. But this... "believing is seeing"... I like this. It opens up a whole new door...

Open Heart

No matter what happens, where he is sent, or how much time passes, I know in my heart that he's very much here with me.

That's something that I've never experienced until recently...

I've spent the last 30 years growing used to people coming and going, and never growing too attached. I developed an unhealthy attitude that, inevitably, everyone leaves. That idea began haunting me after I woke up one day to realize that some of us are not blessed at birth with loved ones who will always be there. Sometimes, our loved ones are called away, are taken away, or simply just walk away, far too soon. I would be a liar if I said that belief did not hurt me. Like any other human being, I need love too... but I tried to convince myself that I didn't. That is one of my many defensive habits which I am trying to change. With expecting everyone to eventually leave, I, of course, never opened my heart or gave too much of myself.

I had hoped... but I never expected... that someone would come along and teach me differently... that trusting someone and opening your heart to them is not a bad thing.

With opening my heart, I let him inside... and there he stays, even if we are physically apart.

Daydreams

Where does your mind go when it wanders?

At a very young age, I learned to pay attention to my dreams and daydreams, and what they have to say to me and teach me. Most people I know think I'm a flake because of this, but the thing is, for me, it is in what these people simply call daydreams, that I find my intuition, learn, pray, find hope and reason, and hear the call from my heart to follow the correct path.

What are your visions saying to you?

Wings of Hope

In recent days, for every time I whisper a prayer from my heart, you are the reason...

Colors of Hope

I chose to do this after the Fear piece, because I have made my way out of many dark places and found my flowered path again. Aside from facing fears, learning and growing, and will, it was hope and faith that also brought me there. Hope has been key in how far I have come in my life. Even when there were times during which I thought for sure, just for a moment, that there may be no hope... hope, itself, proved me wrong.

One of my favorite quotes:

"You have it in your power to make your days on earth a path of flowers,

instead of a path of thorns."

~Sri Sathya Sai Baba

It's very true.



Facing Fear

Fear is a sickness. It rots and corrupts the spirit, and if allowed, it will blot out all colors of hope. I refuse to give up the color and beauty of hope, and all that I may have to look forward to... all of the hidden blessings that have yet to be revealed.

Fear can be my obstacle... my dark place in the woods which I must get through to get to the brightly lit and flowering path... but I will not allow any dark place to keep me from moving forward. I owe it myself, and to those who I have traveling my path with me (those like my child, my partner, my closest loved ones - whose lives are affected by my choices), to not allow fear to overcome reality. The future is a part of that. If I tuck tail and turn and run back to where I came from, I'm worse off than if I face my fears. This has been a life lesson which has spanned all 30 years of my life. I admit, I've failed it a few times. I will never overcome fear in the sense of never experiencing it again. There is no one human being who can tell me honestly that they have no fear at all, ever. We all feel. Some just control it better than others. It is a part of being human. It's one of the things that we are born with.

Fear is a great teacher, and if we listen carefully to it, it can teach us the skills we need to conquer other life lessons. I have a choice... look willingly and with an open heart to the future, and move forward, to all that I dream of and hope for... or I can keep looking over my shoulder and avoid the challenges because of fear, and never get anywhere at all.

This piece is about my own dark place... where fear is blinding and deafening, but I choose to face it anyway, because I choose to step forward... to take another step through that dark place, to reach the path I'm meant to find.

In Dreams

I had a dream last night... the most amazing and beautiful dream... of hope, and of blessings... and I'm praying that it, and all the wishes that have been spoken, will come true.