Open Heart

No matter what happens, where he is sent, or how much time passes, I know in my heart that he's very much here with me.

That's something that I've never experienced until recently...

I've spent the last 30 years growing used to people coming and going, and never growing too attached. I developed an unhealthy attitude that, inevitably, everyone leaves. That idea began haunting me after I woke up one day to realize that some of us are not blessed at birth with loved ones who will always be there. Sometimes, our loved ones are called away, are taken away, or simply just walk away, far too soon. I would be a liar if I said that belief did not hurt me. Like any other human being, I need love too... but I tried to convince myself that I didn't. That is one of my many defensive habits which I am trying to change. With expecting everyone to eventually leave, I, of course, never opened my heart or gave too much of myself.

I had hoped... but I never expected... that someone would come along and teach me differently... that trusting someone and opening your heart to them is not a bad thing.

With opening my heart, I let him inside... and there he stays, even if we are physically apart.